mellie

2006-12-25T18:39:00.000+08:00

haha. i wanna get the new motorola phone.. e red one yeps.
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
thanks shane,wayne,angela,vern,ron,penn,gary.
i think i missed out quite alot of names.
nevermind.its the thought that counts :D

the 'best' christmas present i received this year is my FREAKING PERIOD.
it came on christmas eve. how lucky can i get??

oh oh. i've got my puma bag!!! a new bag for school. its rather big btw.but nvm. can throw in lots of stuff. for example : sanitary pads.

okays. i'm off for dinner. bye!

2006-12-14T22:09:00.000+08:00

HERE'S THE STAR OF TODAY: INTRODUCING: ELICIA CHUA JING YEE.( otherwise known as mei mei or chua kay poh!) trying to kiss. haha

she likes to pose for me. :D then say: more more! ( means take more pics)

thats all. i lazy upload the rest. everytime i see her she takes my phone to take pics. tsk tsk
okay. gtg now. loveee

ps: PUTTING BRACES TML!!

2006-12-06T01:17:00.000+08:00

i talked to kean just now.he's funny. :D
**cONFUSIOn ** says:
how to see..
**cONFUSIOn ** says:
so dark..
**cONFUSIOn ** says:
haha~!!!
MELLIE```` sends:
MELLIE```` says:
nah
MELLIE```` says:
this one

Transfer of "mingyao(jeremy-chan).jpg" is complete.

MELLIE```` says:
SEE SEE. HIS FACE A LIL BIT LIKE YOU ONLY
**cONFUSIOn ** says:
whr gt look like me..
**cONFUSIOn ** says:
he look like shit lo..
**cONFUSIOn ** says:
haha~!!!
MELLIE```` says:
HAHHA. BUT HAIR AND SIZE AND HEIGHT
**cONFUSIOn ** says:
i look more cute than him lo..
MELLIE```` says:
U JEALOUS AH
**cONFUSIOn ** says:
no la..
**cONFUSIOn ** says:
serious..
MELLIE```` says:
MY DINNER HAVEN DIGEST YET LEHS
**cONFUSIOn ** says:
haha~!!!!
**cONFUSIOn ** says:
k la..
**cONFUSIOn ** says:
he handsum..
**cONFUSIOn ** says:
cute..
**cONFUSIOn ** says:
v sunny face..
**cONFUSIOn ** says:
k..
**cONFUSIOn ** says:
haha~!!!
MELLIE```` says:
thats better
**cONFUSIOn ** says:
my dinner also hanvt digest..
**cONFUSIOn ** says:
haha~!!

m' feeling so tired.stupid lionel come disturb me just now. :((
daddy lost his wallet :((
mom making lots of ugly comments abt him :(((((((

WHAT AN UGLY DAY.BYE

2006-12-03T19:17:00.000+08:00

went down to simei house today to accompany the ma ma and all.. very very uberly boring.but got some pics :))

see mei mei!!

now look at her

LOL!!

oh and bought this pen today.

thats all for today. :D bye

2006-12-02T20:14:00.000+08:00

i'd found this on someone's blog.HAHA

what kinda girl can be my kinda girl? hmmm.. tat's an interesting topic to blog about...
heh... ten need-not commandments of daren's girl! maybe and possibly the kind i would marry!! hehe...
need not be very pretty!
need not be rich!
need not be too immature!
need not be inconsiderate!
need not be too a spoilt brat!
need not club alot!
need not be possessive!
need not be very cute!
need not show me love all the time!
need not dislike beansprouts!
Basically, these all the ten charm commandments to fulfill my destiny.. heh... cool..

LOL. SO CUTE!! dimpled face.

m' feeling guilty now.cannot go to love party.
really m sorry. but i cannot go luhs. :((

2006-12-01T23:53:00.000+08:00

went to media corp last night :))

to watch the results show..before that went to justti's house :))
watched the show then headed down to mediacorp to meet jane. reached there early which was good.took pics XD

justti: you see jane's eyes. look like dean hor?
mellie: where got.. hmm i know where alr
jane:where
mellie: her eye bags.

*we all rolled with laughter. hahah.so retarded

daren's dimples.omg. he smiled at us. exchanged a hi then take pics. almost fainted :D
jeremy also.haha. he looked like kean can!!SAME HEIGHT SOMEMORE.
HE TOO SMILED!! OMG. HEART FAILING!!

lols. justti keep on teasing me..its okay. she's jealous. :))

we sat directly behind them. i was asking jane to go pluck their hair. LOL
.
OKAYS. I WANNA SLEEP.MY GUMS ARE HURTING.MELLIE FAINTS.!!

but before i go.here'e some pics:

NIGHTS!! LOVEEE

2006-11-30T14:24:00.002+08:00

jackson took this ystd. adorable eh. but she quite naughty.
she spoilt the fridge at the simei house. tsktsk.

going out the justti and jane later.can't wait :))

2006-11-29T11:31:00.000+08:00

The rain just never seems to bring the joy,
I feel the same,
Everlasting pain of my loss remains,
My heart can't seem to learn to part,
The hold you left your mark,
All that I dreamed of now it seem so stark,
Though I told myself, won't hold my breath,
A part of me was dying,
There is nothing left for me to do now, but give in,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you
I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go.
The way you left me on the train,
I don't know what to say,
I remember everything of that day,
I can't believe we'd never dance,
I just need one more chance,
To share the sunset,
Our one last romance,
Though I told myself, won't hold my breath,
A part of me was dying,
There is nothing left for me to do now but give in,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you
I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go.
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you
I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go

nice eh. finally going home today.been staying in sunplaza for the last..hmm 4 days??all three nights been keeping ron company. :))aint i just so nice.
staying there was good.keeping myself away from my own hideout.having peace.
last night went out for some air with weiqiang.
sat at coffee bean.talk about stuff we regreted and all luhs.
then we walked from there all the way to yishun.
but when they called.we had to turn about.by then we were walking pass some wu lu forest.ha.
had a good chat and all.learnt some stuff from him.
went back sunplaza.msged ron till i fall asleep.i'd think he did too.lols.
oh oh and..i wonder hows karwee..so funny luhs.

shane shane.off studying i guess.
manda at nat's confirmation.

2006-11-24T21:44:00.000+08:00

she hates me but likes my cheese biscuits... :((
i do miss her friendship at times eh..

hollow feeling..

2006-11-20T11:38:00.000+08:00

M: Makes dating fun.
E: Is a damn good kisser.
L: Loved by everyone.
I: Is always there for their friends.
S: Easy to fall in love with.
S: Easy to fall in love with.
A: Addicted to sex.

LOLS.SHANE SENT ME THIS.HE FOUND ON SOME BULLENTIN

m' at the office now.heading out soon
going malaysia tml.
have been ps-ing lionel.hahas.
gtg.byeeeeee

hatred tears us apart

2006-11-14T21:45:00.000+08:00

she said nevermind. its over.but i guess she can't let it go the hatred eh.

had to let shane have control of my phone today cos phone keeps on dying.lols.
he disturbed lionel eh!!! :))

my legs ah killing me.aching like fuck

bye

2006-11-07T20:31:00.000+08:00

sick luhs.thanks to those sleepless nights. for once mellie can't sleep!! haha. miracle.
i'm like waiting for money to roll in only.hahas.
went in to malaysia with mummy today.
BOUGHT A NEW PAIR OF SCHOOL SHOES.
byebye to the less than a year old kappa.
MY NEW SHOES LOOKS LIKE A FREAKING PRIMARY SCHOOL SHOES.I DUN KNOW WHY
HAHA.NEVERMIND.LET ME THIS GIANT HAVE DWARF SHOES FOR ONCE THEN.
XD

ever wonder why the way i reply all your msgs don't sound like its from me sometimes?
because its all shane's mischief! whenever my phone cork up.i won't be able to receive phone calls or sms s this is when i call up those shit opperators to divert everything into one line. which is shane's acct!!hahahs.then he'd play around with people.msg love notes to gross people.like.eh handsome.muacks. WTH.then he'd leave me with all the trouble to clear.wth right? anyways.he has been doing this since...term 4? HAHAHAnevermind.its funny anyway. but most of the time he'd ask me what to reply.haha.so fret not.we are not playing everyone.just some unlucky people he likes to pick on.

AND NO WE ARE NOT TOGETHER

i just dun love you no more
sometimes i just miss the friendship.
miss it so much that i wish nothing happened.
but sometimes i dun feel like being nice to you anymore.
because you make me loathe you even more.
ooo.rain outside my window pouring down.

2006-10-30T11:32:00.000+08:00

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song
Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

went for the awards ceremony.IT LASTED FOR A FREAKING 5 HRS.WTH
almost died.but it was actually quite okay lah.SHE was so funny.haha.and tank is super ugly.
the thing ended like at twelve.and me and jie got lost in kallang.HAHA.walk till my feet was aching like fuck.when we finally found the MRT station.the last train just left.WTF.we waited for some freaking bus instead.hah.reached home only at two.and woke everyone up.

ystd went to clear up the old hse.so freaking tired.made trips back and forth from tpy to sengkang.to yishun.to simei.then to bedok.so tired and so much trash.

just got up and got thinking of lots of stuff.still feeling lost..sians.

i'm late to catch shane.bb

2006-10-28T17:46:00.000+08:00

i'm promoted!! heehes
lol.but i don't feel prepared.lets stay as sec three together with manda.haha
'm going to start work on tuesday!! :)) and watch money roll in later haha
i would be travelling like..in the morning go school.after school rush there like fuck.
and only leave at ten? i'm so screwed.
nvm.wait till money roll in.then we'd talk.HAHA.
will be working with the poly people.and im gonna be the youngest.WTF
its okay.haha.

there's a confession to make btw.
shane's is actually not a gay anymore..since this year. and yeh i date with him since..midyear??
till now..

happy now?

there.i'm honest.better than him :D

sorry angela :(

IM RUNNING LATE FOR THE CHINESE MUSIC GLOBAL AWARDS.BYEBYE

HOPEFULLY I CAN SEE JJ
HAH

2006-10-24T12:39:00.000+08:00

i'm so dead tired.
went jogging with jie this morning *yeah! yeah!*
actually i was busy walking and scratching myself thanks to the hives i get.

hahaha.

anyways.i think my mother's friends is like fat ass please.lets list some of the similarities:

-they are both noisy.talk as though they scared the whole world cannot hear.
-they both try to squeeze in to clothes that are obviously not their size.
- they laugh like they depend their lives on it.so bloody fake
-THEY BOTH HAVE FAT ASSES :))

haha.i'm evil yeah.but fat ass doesnt deserve me being nice to her.
yesterday when i saw fat ass.with her stupid face in the afternoon.i couldnt help but think.karma.

let me introduce fat ass to you okay

-she thinks she's miss know it all
-she desperately tries to slim down but cannot make it
-she squeezes herself into clothes too small for her that i think the button will burst open soon
-she thinks of herself as extremely pretty and thinks guys are always beo-ing at her.
-she ASS-U-MES. no wonder her ass so fat
-she thinks she's popular
-she has extremely bad breath
-her character sucks and she desperately tries to act infront of guys she like
-she reminds me of steven lim

oh one more thing that i have to clarify before pple start assuming:

NO SHE IS NOT FROM MY SCHOOL

oh i end here first.to much to type but no strength.

2006-10-20T18:30:00.000+08:00

yesterday the trail was fucking boring please.hah.the food sucks too.so sucky that we were late to meet the rest.and wells.tension wasnt very good.sorry for being late eh.in the afternoon.

I FINALLY MET UP WITH JANE. LOVE LOVE!!

we caught up with whats going on and all lah.then she told me what she knows and all.she's so true can!! thanks eh babe.we were so bo liao.take train from one end to the other.but nevermind.what matters is that we talked :)) haha.thanks for your opinons eh babe.oh and i love your tongue :D hahas.she came my house aft that.chat and all then i'd walked her back to the station.

TODAY:

didnt go school in the morning.sleep.haha.went down to watch mom wash car.not help
then i went to school :))

got scolded by jac yip :((

hahah.chatted with manda of stuff.then we were quite crazy for 2 hours.singing dancing taking pictures and all.oh and.chow corrupted my memory card with her pictures.HAHA.stupid tanned ears.gwen so cute please.u havent teach me finish that shaking things yet!! ha

im going showerr

2006-10-17T10:58:00.000+08:00

"your inmature and childish acts are getting you no where.you think too much.its fine if you wanna gossip.but come onwake up.who lied to who i wonder.who played with whose trust.you think i did those to you? let it be it.i was just being used when you were lonely.and to think i hung on and hear you out.oh my.i'm foolish.i should have saw you throughi think mediacorp needs your talent.for you can act pretty well don't you know?i trusted you.but you played me out.its over i guess.untill we see things through.it was actually an obstacle meant for us to cross togetherfor i had already crossed the obstacle.what about you.if you still wanna cross it with me.i'd backtrack and walk on with you together.if not.lets separate at the cross roads. the end."

remember this part where i posted in my past entires? i think one week before.wells.this part received response leh.hehehs.but people you have got it wrong.who says it is directed at jocelyn? don't assume lah please.next time just double check with me.i can tell you who its for. :)

I PASSED ONLY ONE SUBJECT.I AM SO BLOODY SCREWED.SO SCREWED.ANYONE RETAINING WITH ME??

i guess now i can only hope that i will pass chinese and after moderation i can pass another few more subjects so maybe can secure myself for next year.i dun care.mrs krishna says i will pass.make sure i see a pass.

AHHHHH I FEEL LIKE SCREAMMINGGGGGGGGGG

and yes i've got job offers.anybody want a job? i think i banged myself.so many people are hired alr.LOL

oh and!!! JEEONG IS COMMING BACK SINGAPORE!!I SO FUCKING MISS HIM PLEASE. :)) I CAN'T WAIT.THOUGH THERE'S GOING TO BE A LANGUAGE BARRIER CAUSE HE'S GOING TO IRRITATE ME WITH HIS KOREAN LANGUAGE.HE CAN SPEAK ENGLISH.JUST SUPPOSELY DUN WANT.WTF PLEASE.NEVERMIND.JUST HURRY COME BACK PREETYBOY!!EVEN IF ITS JUST FOR 1 WEEK :D

lately things hadnt been going right..just hope maybe i'd be able to tide over.

be positive remember?

2006-10-10T10:43:00.000+08:00

FUCK OFF.FUCKING HELL FUCK OFF

its undeniable that the pain i feel is killing me.

2006-10-08T16:34:00.000+08:00

nevermind.its over.

i'd have been like hearing this three stupid words since forever.heard it when A was confronting B.heard it when C and D broke up.saw it in my last msging session with jocelyn.hmm. and even heard myself using it yesterday to #@$$^&%$ hah.
whats the point of saying nevermind its over when you are still thinking about it.moreover to say bitching about it.who cares?because everyone bitches even i do.
.but seriously.come to think of it.whats the point of saying those 3 words it when we all know things aren't gonna be so simple?look at how things are now.and yet to think i was such a smart aleck to promise mrs jacobs with the challenge.AH- HAH! now i'm caught inbetween it.

on the surface.we all have guarded expressions.thinking no one will notice.but supposedly if a convo strikes up we will talk about very uberly random stuff.so random that you will be left thinking why did you even say it.after the convo. each of us will go back to our separate groups and people will start asking :what she say?quick tell me..haha.ain't it obvious.wells.at least i don't.because they don't ask me untill i feel like saying.which i don't.

secondary school like is so superficial.agree?

yesterday.i tried out the stupid challenge. haha.i had to find target first mah.so the easiest to find was obviously jocelyn.she's always online. -.-
fish talked to me before that.he is so fucking random please.he knew i won't say much unless i can think of something easy to say that can process in his stupid thick brain.
he was like:

fish:you know i took off my tag board right?
me: duh. whole world knows that.why arh?
fish: because i have 2 anon spamming me
fish: =X
*mellie went offline*

after that i copied paste to jo.haha.cos i got nothing to say mah.so as usual.my pea brain randomness.but i really am sincere of the challenge okay!!i need to be able to strike a convo online before face to face what.i sit there.forgot about my convo with shane and glenn.and waited for reply like one tree.wait untill my back stiff.mrs jacobs say i must be sincere what.end up i banged myself.no reply.ahah. if she's reading this.the first word out from her will most probably be : pathetic or whatever. but nevermind.haha.because this is all about my willingness of being to arrogant and must learn to be sincere about stuff.haha.must have a positive outlook.your mom never teach you mehs?

i want go kbox after exams.who to go with sia.
who cares.go study now first.fail then whole holiday can say byebye.

haha.

2006-10-04T19:03:00.000+08:00

i'm like talking to colin online now.and he's telling me why they broke up..i didnt expect kero to be so violent please.so freaky to hear his side of the story now.

i'm gonna fail tml physics.i'm so gonna fail all subs.die alr

today amanda is seriously damn bo liao please. she bought two bags of the same and ask me to carry it with her tml.so to see what kind of reaction she will get. god manda.pple will most prob think i m crushing on you which is so not please.

stupid dennis is irritating me now.i realise something. he doesnt like to chat. he likes to suan. wtf please.

2006-09-30T18:11:00.000+08:00

lets blog about last night. :))
hmms.met up with weiqiang and melvin. ate long johns for dinner.and i paid for it.what shit gentleman are they?hahas.anyways.i forgot that my phone corked up so i made uncle ong wait for half an hour.so poor thing please.he was sick somemore.he didn expect me to be so tall.i didn expect him to be so short.hahas.anyways.after that met up with jie then went to city hall to meet sheralyn.then walked to padang.so effing far please!!anyways.we were there early.but had to wait for bimbo.
hahas.the cabbie took her to all singapore's tourist places before coming here.the fare was so ex please.hahas.the whole group was so intently watching the movie while me and bimbo? lie back see the sky and chat.go out and smoke.back in and talk again.yes. IJ girls sure can talk.haha.took pics.the movie is so boring lah.no lah.actually its beacause i have no idea what its talking about.whatever.the night sky was so nice please.we should have brought our lanterns.HAHA.
in the end. at eleven.they all left.we went to meet mom for supper. :D so tired lah.
we'd doing this again next friday.maybe i'd be able to get what the movie is saying.cos its tokyo drift. hahas

oh.before i forget.bimbo wore 3 or 4 inch heels to walk on the field.WTH PLEASE.WHAT A BIMBO.aha

went to new hse today.then met up with manda and claire.couldn meet fenn.sad lah. cos it was raining.hahas.oh and. i got the smaller chip and dale today!went to eat at cartel. thanks manda!!hahas.claire's nice actually.haha.

okays.going to go yishun to meet the rest.owen too. :D haha. oh i miss his mother.

2006-09-29T16:32:00.000+08:00

chow goes out in the sun just to tan her ears. -.-
seriously.her ears are tanned.go check it out.
and my sister is tanning her teddy. what rubbish.he's brown alr.

why bother contacting me?i'm happy the way life is now.
if you think that i lied to you.be that way.i sompah i did not.
think i'm living in denial.thats fine with me.

shane sucks people i tell you.he sure knows how to bully me. -.-
evan is trying to send me all her pictures.i think she is trying to hint me to upload them at sg girls.com.WTF PLEASE.can't wait to meet her later at padang :)) its been long bimbo. hhaa

your inmature and childish acts are getting you no where.
you think too much.its fine if you wanna gossip.but come on
wake up.who lied to who i wonder.who played with whose trust.
you think i did those to you? let it be it.
i was just being used when you were lonely.
and to think i hung on and hear you out.oh my.i'm foolish.
i should have saw you through
i think mediacorp needs your talent.
for you can act pretty well don't you know?
i trusted you.but you played me out.
its over i guess.untill we see things through.
it was actually an obstacle meant for us to cross together
for i had already crossed the obstacle.what about you.
if you still wanna cross it with me.i'd backtrack and walk on with you together
.if not.lets separate at the cross roads. the end.

2006-09-26T15:46:00.000+08:00

english paper 2 sucked.hahas.i ended the earliest and mrs siau come poking me. :((
hahas.
i finally uploaded the pictures to friendster. ryan looks so hot can.hahas.
okay. now i need to go help him upload.so retard please.shane's jealous.he can deal with it.hahas.

when i finally found out the truth.it doesn't matter anymore.
boy don't tell me you love me when you don't know.
i'm tired of hearing things i should know.
i'd think its time for us to let go
for baby there's nothing left to hang on.

2006-09-22T17:03:00.000+08:00

i think i fucking hell failed my oral.she didnt even give me a chance to describe the picture lah.prompt prompt prompt.end up rushing for toliet nia. backside lah :(

if you really loved me you would accept the change in me.
if you really loved me you would be right there for me.
if you really loved me you would not have lied.
if you really loved me you would not have find excuses.
if you really loved me you would not have called her.
Now. what makes you think you loved me? As if you ever did.

its over-

2006-09-20T18:29:00.000+08:00

its undeniable that i'd miss you :(

school's okay today i guess.accounts was damn tiring.write and write.fuckingly hate it.after schools' maths was okay i guess.time flew by..i'm so freakking tired please.i'm dreading tomorrw.oh and. mr yap.hope he gets well soon.poor thing eh.hahas. alrights..i gotta go study.my books are like..an additional decoration to my desk. haha

lead me on.

2006-09-19T16:25:00.000+08:00

i got this link from jocelyn. her one like damn true.haha.go see hers.

Your Birthdate: January 12

You're a dynamic, charismatic person who's possibly headed for fame.You tend to charm strangers easily. And you usually can get what you want from them.Verbally talented, you tend to persuade people with your speaking and writing.You are affectionate and loving, but it's hard for you to commit to any one relationship.
Your strength: Your charm
Your weakness: Your extreme manipulation tactics
Your power color: Indigo
Your power symbol: Four leaf clover
Your power month: December

2006-09-19T15:53:00.000+08:00

i saw something that i didnt wanna see today.its just so upsetting.lets not talk about it.

school's tiring today i guess. there SO MUCH FREAKING ANTS IN THE KITCHEN LAH.
yuck yuck eww. maths and bio was damn retarded today.esp bio. had to sit next to her. -.-

i'm trying not be think about it.trying not to be sensitive.but i can't help it can i?

i miss you like shit.we talk everyday.i see you everyday.
but the feeling is no longer there.it disappeared.
there's an invisible barrier in between us.the barrier is too hard to poke thru.
too high to reach over.the pain is killing me.
i need to tell you things.but it just won't come out when i see you.
its just that hard isnt it?

i dun think i can how on much longer.not even till thursday
dun make promises you can't keep.it breaks my heart.or maybe.its already broken

2006-09-18T18:46:00.000+08:00

i took this test today:(my answers in green)

Put the following 5 animals in the order of your preference.
Cow Tiger Sheep Horse Pig
ans: horse.sheep.tiger.pig.cow

Write one word that describes each one of the following: Dog Cat Rat Coffee Sea
ans: dog = adorable
cat = freaky
rat = gross
coffee = nice
sea = beautiful

Think of someone (who also knows you and is important to you) that you can relate them to the following colours (do not repeat your answer twice. Name just one person for each colour.) Yellow Orange Red White Green
ans:
red: jocelyn
green: priscilla
yellow:elaine
orange: josephine
white: j***

Finished? Please be sure that your answers are what you REALLY WANT. Look at the interpretations below: (but first before continuing, repeat your wish.)

This will define your priorities in your life.
Cow Signifies CAREER
tiger Signifies PRIDE
Sheep Signifies LOVE
Horse Signifies FAMILY
Pig Signifies MONEY

Your description of dog implies your own personality.
Your description of cat implies the personality of your partner.
Your description of rat implies the personality of your enemies.
Your description of coffee is how you interpret sex.
Your description of the sea implies your own life.

Yellow: Someone you will never forget
Orange: Someone you consider your true friend
Red: Someone that you really love
White: Your twin soul
Green: Someone that you will remember for the rest of your life
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partially to me its true. but j*** my twin soul? LOL.
i interpret sex as nice? hahahs. please.what happened to my ambition of being a nun?
jocelyn someone i really love? yes. my ma zi
josephine my true friend? i guess so. she's always very direct with me
elaine someone i'd never forget? HAHAHA. i think so too.
priscilla:someone i'd never forget.of cos.dragonfly mah
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i went for counselling today.. supposedly to follow up awhile ago.but i kinda didn't wanna face it.till today.
change of counsellor.i have no idea what her name is.at first a little scary i guess.i wouldnt tell her much.but after a few times of prompting.i'm tired. i told her everything.
i hate having to tell her.it makes me cry like shit.but she says its because i'd been holding back for too long.have i? i duno. dawn got a shock when i came back out. sore eyelids i guess.
i didnt wan her to step in. but she reasoned that i cannot overcome all this myself. naturally i gave in. i need to see her next thursday again. :( i'm afraid to do this again. but i have to i guess.i cannot escape anymore.
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maybe i'm just being too sensitive.

2006-09-17T11:10:00.000+08:00

i am so not gonna answer her or his phone calls today anymore.can't they settle things between themselves instead of always disturbing me? i'm like so irritated lah.
wanted to meet jo today.but that fellow still sleeping.so hard to wake her up please.my day is already starting to get worser.i just figured out something.shane put it together for me and we found out that:
before you know it.your crush has already fallen for your friend.like WTH lah.

shane: you dun mind?
mellie: i mind for what? fren fren mah.so must share share
shane: you gotta be kidding me

i can't stand it when i have to meet your every demand.

shane wants me to bluff all of you that he is gay. WTF PLEASE. its too later.angela saw my blog alr shane.

you broke my heart--

2006-09-17T04:22:00.000+08:00

stop fucking hell messaging me.if you can't keep your boyfriend in your hands then don't blame me. what makes you think i have something with him.i have better people to think about. how fucking imature can you be.why not you just accuse that every girl on this planet is seducing him to two time you.if you feel so insecure. go sign a plan with cisco. i'm sure they will make you feel protected.
fuckingly paranoid people
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whole morning i am being irritated by people. so irritated that i shouted at shane. sad huh? he played me the chipmunk song in the end.i ended up feeling better. he promised to find me a chipmunk towel.so next time when i cry.i won't wet his shirt like the last time.WTF PLEASE!hahas.
my eyes are so sore now. thanks to some idiot.

adeline.if you are reading this.sorry i set you aeroplane today eh? i'm just not up for it.
lately i just want to stay at home. mummy thinks i banged my head.oh and check out the new testimonial samson wrote for me. what the hell please. stupid mao mao cong.

okays.i am so going to go nap now.

ps: shane just revealed.he isn't gay!! OMG. big news to his admirers out there eh.i am not suppose to say it out.to prevent girls from raping him. but he didn't say i cannot post it here. :))
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Watch out cause here we come It's been a while but we're back with style So get set to have some fun We'll bring you action and satisfaction We're the chipmunks C-H-I-P-M-U-N-K We're the chipmunks Guaranteed to brighten your day When you feel like a laugh Give us a call we'll give you a roll And if you feel like a song Tune in to us and sing right along We're the chipmunks Coming on stronger than ever before We're the chipmunks Alvin, Simon, Theodore

2006-09-16T13:35:00.000+08:00

(EDITED)

I FINALLY MANAGE TO GET THE CODE. HAHAS. DUN STEAL ARH

HERE'S THE BEAUTIFUL LYRICS. (HINT:ENCODING UNICODE -UTF 8)

我闭上眼睛
只是此刻一切失去意义
你送给我的诚意
你写给我的信
抱得太紧却像是空气

我撕着日历
撕到八月三十才甘心
我情愿欺骗自己
我试着假装过去
仿佛重温当天的情景
但你眼角还是不争气
还在说着相同的言语
但我终究不在这里
再怎么装也是多余

我可以选择哭
我可以选择逃
但我不可能选择忘了你的微笑
我仍在默默祈祷
八月三十重新来到
嘴边残留着昨夜的天荒地老
为何转眼间深泪伴我终老
在破碎的泪痕前
我显得如此渺小

我撕着日历
撕到八月三十才甘心
我情愿欺骗自己
我试着假装过去
仿佛重温当天的情景
但我嘴角还是不争气
还在说着相同的过去
但你还是不在这里
终究闻不到你的真心

我可以选择哭
我可以选择逃
但我不可能选择忘了你的微笑
我仍在默默祈祷
八月三十重新来到
嘴边残留着
昨夜的天荒地老
为何转眼间深泪
伴我终老
在破碎的泪痕前
我显得如此渺小

就这样
两个人等从此一个人逃
就这样两个人的故事就画上句号喔
。。ho。。。

我可以选择哭
我可以选择逃
但我不可能选择忘了你的微笑
我仍在默默祈祷
八月三十重新来到
嘴边残留着
昨夜的天荒地老
为何转眼间深泪伴我终老
从此我的生命就停留在八月三十号
从此我的生命就。。。
重复着八月三十。。。号。。。。

OMG. I SIMPLY LOVE THIS SONG

2006-09-16T01:08:00.000+08:00

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notice there's no song? i duno why its not playing. its fucking irritating.
didn't go to school today.thanks to my stupid cramps. i'd have got jelly legs now.
i had this conversation with my mother this morning:

me: mommy. why didn't you give birth to me as a boy.that why i wouldn't have to suffer

mom: why not you go ask your daddy why can't he help me make you a boy.

me: next time when am rich. i'm so going for sex change in thailand.that way i won't suffer

mom: you go lor. dun ask money from me can already. but i tell you hor. later the doctors there inexperience instead of having two breast removed you have an additional one to make three you dun come crying to me hor. and also. how old do you think i'll be when you go for that opperation. dun come back scare me which a cock. heart attack Then you know.

me : -.-

why do i have such a mother?
WEIJIAN'S BIRTHDAY IS COMING!!!!
:))

btw: i am going to sit back and watch for the next few days. to see if this friendship is worth going on.

2006-09-13T10:20:00.000+08:00

notice how long ago was my last post? haha.
lately i'm feeling like..distant? distant from friends i guess.
and i raise my tone for no reason. like wtf right?
dun ask me why i'm acting lidat. because i also duno why. but i m sorry anyway.
its kinda irritating to feel distant. somewhat like feeling left out eh?
maybe i m just thinking too much. but i won't feel lidat for no reason right? oh whatever.my brain probably ain't functioning.

i'm desperately trying to get the song.be patient pple

2006-06-15T04:47:00.000+08:00

i didnt get to go see my new hse today.thanks to my stupid cramps.

oh gosh i can't take it any more.my cramps are hurting like shit please. usually i'll hurt for like 3 days.and today is only the second day.ARGH.ystd it hurt so badly that i couldn't sleep.and now i have those panda eyes.sighs.i fucking hell hate being a women because of cramps.its just so irritating.auntie lorna ask me go cut it away lah. -.- i also want! but i scared pain lah.haha.anyways. lets blog about ystd.

last night kean came over to our hse.he left at like. 6 am? like WTF right? lols.he told me sth about edison chen.so omg lah.its hard not to believe sia.anyways. as i was hurting so badly last night.i teared naturally as always.(i do this every month cos i can't help it) he still offered me coke.i was like : the window lock has its key in it. why not u just twist it open and help yourself out thru it instead of using the door.HHAHA.i was mean. but i can't help it can i.so pain sia. i dun was be woman alr lah.in the morning when i went to hougang on the bus. i got cars sick. or rather bus sick. thanks to shijia. want to sit soooooo front.better still.i didn't have any candy with me.so ick.

i've watched the movie 'cars' alr. cos actually we wanted to watch she's the man. but yishun GV dun offer that movie. WTF right.the lighting mcqueen is so retard.
okay. i am hurtting sooooooo badly now. i think i have bloged long enough.
cramps cramps go away. never ever come again.-.-

2006-05-29T11:26:00.000+08:00

i've been plain lazy. ahahas. i got a stupid ucler in my mouth. is that how u spell it? ahah.i dun knows. anyways. its the hols and i am plain bored.hahs.pris goh is too. is know.LOL.the wedding is oover but will look forward to the another one iin november.haha.i seriously hope can recover soon sia. the medicine taste gross.but oh wells. which kind of medicine actually tastes good? tell me about it. weijian's forum is back up and he left a msg. so happy yeahs!! hahas.

2006-05-20T08:18:00.000+08:00

i know i haven't been blogging.yes i am just plain lazy.wat to do?hahahas.
okays i got back my results.i think i merely passed 4 subs only. better than nothing.adeline also.but she scored higher.so the laksa treat is on you adeline tan kim leng!! hahahahs.today i practically did nothing at school luhs.ahas. after school helped out with the banner.haha.yeah.i ended up painting "EMU" on emilynn's thigh.HAHA.in different colour sumore.okays.just a short post.nothing more.going to showwer. till them. loves

2006-04-23T01:29:00.000+08:00

okay, i am talking to michael now. about why he supports the workers party. this is how our conversation went.

mikey says:
Why not. Yes, we owe a million and one things to the PAP. The reason PAP came about in the 1960s is because people took a chance and decided to vote for them. The media has scrutinized and tarnished the Opposition parties images in Singapore. It takes a lot of courage to stand there and to participate in the GE. I think that as a society, Singaporeans have become more mature and have been able to see that the PAP does have its own flaws. If the PAP wins the entire elections, yes, we will be safe.. etc. But why not take a risk? Did we not take a risk back then by votin for the PAP? The WP's msg in the papers is simple. Singaporeans have a choice to vote for them or not. It's clear to see how the WP has changed. The people look credible so far. Come Thursday, we will see how credible they really are.

mikey says:
I think that the PAP has become somewhat complacent. Yes, they're good. They've helped us. But let us remember that that batch of MPs which helped us progress so far has already left. Most of them have retired from politics. LKY is one of the persistent few. But he does not have so much time left.

mikey says:
They described the Workers Party as playing a cat and mouse game. Obviously, saying that the opposition is like a mouse. The PAP a cat. It is true that the PAP has a huge advantage. But to speak so lowly of the opposition seems very haughty and arrogant.

( i was so shocked at his reply. too chim. so this was wat i replied, very randomly)

MELLIE```little favours is all i can do for you says:
have you ever thought of going into politics?

mikey says:
I hope the Workers Party has something good up their sleeves. They've been our of the limelight, they've been given time to prepare. I hope this time at least one representative can help.
mikey says:
Not really. Lol. But if it comes why not.
mikey says:
I hope more can be done for the Arts scene. Schools need more help with Arts as well as sex education.
MELLIE```little favours is all i can do for you says:
i think you should. and i'll remeber your name in time to come.
MELLIE```little favours is all i can do for you says:
LOL
mikey says:
There is not enough being done. Homosexuality is sooooo underrated. Child pornography is not being given enough attention
mikey says:
All the taboos and controversial issues.. the PAP has kept it away and stored. Locked under key.
MELLIE```little favours is all i can do for you says:
homosexuality?
MELLIE```little favours is all i can do for you says:
hahas

(i looked at that word "homosexuality" and suddenly thought of colin and kero.LOL)

mikey says:
Now we're begining to see the consequences and they're trying to do this and that. But it's evident we're on the brink of something bigger. Outbreak of AIDS...etc.
mikey says:
Yups. Being gay is not wrong.
mikey says:
We shld embrace them like how the world has. But it will affect religons.
mikey says:
People will be insulted. There should be and org set up to protect the rights of gay people. People should understand how much suffering they're put through. But that said, there must be laws.
mikey says:
Yes, cos' people don't understand! cos the government doesn't do enough to educate people on the topic!
MELLIE```little favours is all i can do for you says:
LOLS
mikey says:
Cos' a lot of the homosexuals prey on young people. There shld b laws preventing this. They should be specific.

mikey says:
Family ties in Singapore need to be strengthened. I think the education system is too harsh. We shld focus on things that are truly important as well. Moral values, inter-religious respect.
mikey says:
All this time there has been this thing about PAP saying that we have great racial harmony. I don't think it's that true

( there's a little sentence he said in between this convo here that i have to censor.cannot show. sorry)

mikey says:
More shld b done. And it's not being done. And tha's why i think the WP ppl shld somehow bring these issues up. It's more bold, and they definitely will garner more attention. Because a lot of ppl suffer in these areas.
mikey says:
Yes!
mikey says:
Which is why we really need to see how credible they are!
mikey says:
I was watching news ytd
mikey says:
first 15mins was PAP
mikey says:
then advert
MELLIE```little favours is all i can do for you says:
yeah i saw
mikey says:
WP had like 4 mins
mikey says:
then PAP again
mikey says:
Like wth
MELLIE```little favours is all i can do for you says:
pap has the support of the media which isn;t exactly fair
mikey says:
Yup. It isn't at all. But if u think about it. The LKY interview with journalists. They're from the media. There's so much talk about it cos some say the journalists challenged LKY. So perhaps not all of them support the PAP. I think if the WP is credible enough, when I get a chance to vote.. 'll vote for them. A few of my friends agree to do so too.

mikey says:
I think even if they don't win, but if it was a hard battle and the WP was close to winning.
mikey says:
The PAP will sit up and realise that the opposition is a powerful force to be reckoned with
MELLIE```little favours is all i can do for you says:
HAHA. if only we all have a chance to vote too. but won't voting the workers party be a risk?
mikey says:
Yeps. It will be. But it all depends on their strategy and what they're going to do.
mikey says:
But if u think about it. It wont b that much of a risk. We all know PAP will get a huge majority
mikey says:
Having one or two WP MPs seem quite gd enough for conflict of interests. Which will help our country evolve to be more open minded
mikey says:
different perspectives will b brought up in discussions i guess
MELLIE```little favours is all i can do for you says:
true... your parents voting?
mikey says:
Yep

mikey says:
My mom said she wants to vote for WP. that caused me to think about it and watch the news ytd to see wad's really happening. ever since our PM came on the front page with his PAP stuff. I was like. Omg. PAP is sooooooooooooooo using the media
mikey says:
overusing
mikey says:
lol.

(okay. the rest of the convo is in bits and pieces.) this is basically the convo i had for the last 20 mins.) have fun

2006-04-19T14:54:00.000+08:00

its been some time since i have bloged. yeah. i am having a convo now with my two didis. kero and colin.

yes. colin is officially my didi too now. lols. anyways. check out their blog: www.colinandkero.blogspot.com

narrowminded people are advisable to read so as to open up your minds. open minded people are also welcome to give encouragements.

after all. they are lovely people. right kero?

I LOVE MY DIDIS

2006-04-13T12:03:00.000+08:00

classes are boring stupid and irriating today.cos i'm dead sleepy.HAHA. my didi in love le leh. everybody ard me is in love. except me. you know why?

cos i'm gonna be a nun. hehes

2006-04-08T10:00:00.000+08:00

hmms.today was almost late for school . didn't get to buy my curry puff =(
during flag raising. dilmeet sang damn loud can! like she at her own concert.damm funny.we were all like shaking with laughter.hahas.during chinese as usual chow doze off while i daze.sians.today quite tired cos got 7 subjects but the day was quite okay.recess was a little quiet.the first set of bio test, i only got 1 mark can.pathetic.nat changed into the sari.her tan from camp looked damm wierd.yeahs.emu lent me her campus superstar cd. hehes.got zhiyang's er shi er.damn happy luhs.emu also showed me her 'dean;s' picture. LOL wah. if only the school's carpark also got the word "zhiyang", "willy","derrick","weijian" OR "DjEiRaInC".piangs. i will straight away go take picture. HAHAS.chinese oral sucked like shit. i think i flunk it. i told lao shi i wrote " lao shi wo ai ni" on the white board (i really did), she have to pass me.i keep on having english words when i having the convo with her. i giggle and giggle like shit everytime i see her face. lao shi resorted to covering her face. damn funny. after my turn i waited for chow.lao shi show off for her say: u see? she only got 2 words wrong. i scold chow: so you think u very good luhs. LOL. so not fair please. she is constantly sleeping.i bet i am more awake than her. :)) i wanna watch tv alr. bye

2006-03-29T07:23:00.000+08:00

i fucking hell hate ms _____. of all days why did you have to call last night?fucking bitch. i am not the loudest one in class okay. yes i do talk in class.but not as much as others esp you. fucking bitch.dun expect me to give u a wide smiley during your lessons.it is not my fault if our class is not settling down in your lessons.it is just that on your first day teaching us you alr shown us how incapable are you to control us. u were in such a nervous wreck okay.pausing and pausing between words. sucker.fuck off luhs

im in dliemma.who to go with.are you sure that there's no turning back for the situation alr?

thanks arh.mazi.for hearing me out. adeline tan & chow, pris goh and teo. thanks eh. cheering me up. and ah kua. thanks for tying my hair for me. LOL. sorry manda.for touching your clevage.LOL

2006-03-26T05:52:00.000+08:00

okays.been quite awhile since i blogged.time to update about the past week.hehs

we had PE now on tues. i put on weight!!!*beams. i am only missing 2-3 kgs to healthy weight. AHAHAS. priscilla goh is so damm light can. i swear. gosh i think the wind blow she will fly and i wave goodbye to her. -.- lol
the CIP that day.wed i think.went ard tpy to collect newspapers. i swear most of the houses are damm stink can. some kept stray cats i think. the houses smelt of pee.haha.okay i am horrid. we were quite tired by the end of it but it had a good respond.so nvm then. wells.
mom and dad have been quarrelling.please put an end to it.i beg you.please.i dun wan and need a broken family.thankyou.

oh yeah.i have been asked to bring frens to celestechen birthday party. anyone wanna go? ahah. contact her thru her web pls. thanks

2006-03-17T04:57:00.000+08:00

happily thought we will have a good convo today. but it doesn't look like it is gonna happen.once its gone. it won't come back. wells. at least i had a good decent convo with anson earlier on.

2006-03-16T06:34:00.000+08:00

i'm online.and vern is not happy.here am i crapping away.there he is sulking away.what can i do my fren?

2006-03-04T15:37:00.000+08:00

i just came back from camp.so fun please =D got sun burned. esp the nose, like botox.hahahs. got blue black and wound also.hahaha.there were ups and downs in camp. everything was so fun. thanks ah kua for massaging my fore head for me.LOL.the instructors all damm nice. some are HOT HOT HOT. shuld have brought tissues to dry the drool of people.LOL .bag was damm heavy.so tired.gonna nap.

2006-02-20T09:25:00.000+08:00

today is finally my last day!!! so glad can. just came back from work. todays attached manager was Nelson. he is soooooo bloody gay can.LOL
pal bought for me the piglet. he is such a good pal man.LOL. work was boring. nothing much.
going off to pig out. bye

2006-02-19T03:34:00.000+08:00

you make me wanna love you at times.hate you at times.

2006-02-17T06:38:00.000+08:00

today there's no school. no i am not kidding.haha.this morning was suppose to meet jocelyn at 7.15.i woke up at 7.00am.naturally i was late luhs.LOL.was rushing around like gay shit. =)
walked to central. on the way. met alot strangers who were starring at me.probably tot i pon school.stupid can.
physics lesson was boring.and no i never finish my worksheet.i talk a hell lot of crap with dawn.damm funny.by the end of the lesson.both my hands have cartoons on it.done by the infamous artists: jocelyn, priss and dawn. so gay can.
came home and nap till now, i am freaking hungry.

bye

2006-02-16T10:15:00.000+08:00

i finally finished changing my layout. but still got the links. its being so stuborn.doesn't wanna let me change the colour.irritating.
i seriously think i flunk my history.if i really did.it would mean i have flunk 2 CAs. shit. so much of promising my mom.-_-. i didn't mean to flunk it okay. its just that i have no idea how to elaborate.sighs.
school was boring as usual.english was good though.today's physics lesson, mrs tang took over and ms siew sat behind and watch.suddenly. thru the whole lesson.it wasn't at all distracting like the last few times.i guess she caught our attention eh.
stupid total defence day.we had to ration on disgusting buns and newater.gross.i was hungry by the seventh period.LOL.because i gave jamie my bun.HAHA.
finally after assembly the canteen was finally open. thank lord. me and jo went to eat then when in search for ms siew. yeps. for extra physics. i asked her for it. and i was starting to regret cause i m dead tired. but nvm. me and jo sat with her for more than an hour. getting our facts right.lucky tml no school.i can sleep after the one hour extra physics i have tml.

i wanna nap. bye